Hello bitch, you thought you’d seen the last of me.
I need somewhere to start blogging and writing that’s not Instagram and I think everyone I know has forgotten about Tumblr so this seems like the perfect place.
so much is going on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it’s too much!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to sleep in the forest for 190 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m tired leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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adulthood really does hit you like a fucking truck when you spent all of your teenage years thinking you were gonna kill yourself eventually,
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Why’re subcultures so lame today. Asexual this. Fandom that. In the 60s you read lord of the rings and took drugs until you died
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I even have to remind myself every now and then that multiple things can be true at once. Tonight’s example: it can be painful that someone’s out of your life, and at the same time it can be exhilirating to accept that their time in your life is over.
“You cannot sit back and wait for a savior. You can’t opt out because you don’t feel sufficiently inspired by this or that particular candidate. This is not a rock concert. This is not Coachella. We don’t need a messiah.”— President Obama, 9/7/18
one hard pill to swallow (that i had to learn myself) is that in order to actually learn coping skills and progress with living successfully with your mental illness is that you have to take action. whether that’s going to therapy or removing yourself from toxic enviornments/people, living your life solely for yourself or whatever. you can’t sit around venting forever and expect it will change. theres only so much understanding and patience that others around you will have. sometimes mental illness is a burden on others. it’s a burden when you have access to help and choose not to take it. sometimes it’s exhausting. there’s no magic day where it will all fall together. you have to actively make that magic.
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my new roommate’s best friend literally says “we’ll just go out for one drink” on a weeknight, goes to a club, has ONE drink while everyone else is getting to it, and then tells everyone when it’s time to go home so they can actually make it to class in the morning and I’m genuinely terrified by the amount of self control she has
saying you’ll just have one drink at the club on a school night and then following through and getting up for class the next day demonstrates the exact level of resolve it took to amputate your own arm on an 18th century battlefield
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Today’s a good reminder that no one will ever love every part of you except for you. Even the parts about yourself that are weird or annoying and you can’t change/don’t want to - the only one who will love those things are you.
No one loves the personality trait of Wikipedia-ing movie plots within the 15 minutes of the movie bc I’m too impatient to wait 2 hours to know certain plot points. I’d rather read, know, then watch. Everyone hates this. I get it. I understand.
But I don’t. And so today I get to accept that there’s one person in the world who loves spoiling movies for themselves at home and that person is me.
It’s also one of those days where you mourn the loss of living alone. It doesn’t happen often but sometimes I miss having my own space and not feeling like an inconvenience is someone else’s life.
Make a list of everything your worried about. Come up with a solution for each issue, then trust it and believe it. This dramatically shifts your energy into a trusting timeline. Suddenly the worries start to melt away.
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Tonight is a dumb anorexia flare up night and it’s stupid because I WANT to eat but I can’t for some reason because instead all I can think about is how I literally can’t pay the rent on time this month so I can’t order pizza and that seems like the only safe food and I was a piece of shit who skipped my therapy appointment this week and I’m petrified my doctor has decided she doesn’t want to work with me or have me see her anymore because I have no showed so many times over the last 3 years and I just….want some pizza and Jurassic Park but somehow that also seems like it’s just going to keep everything worse
I wanna be married. I wanna plan a wedding. I want baby Penny to be coming soon. And for once it’s not depressed dreaming, it’s just feeling like I have to wait to give myself the life I want and now that I feel better than I eve grave, capable of that life, I don’t want to wait. I gave up over half of my 20s to this bullshit. I don’t wanna spend anymore time waiting. ):
Ignore me, this is all petty and Xanax induced. I live a really good life these days. I should just be present.